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04 May 2014 @ 10:44 pm
That moment someone makes an ignorant, insensitive comment, and you have to relive your own rape.
Current Mood: dirtydirty
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01 March 2014 @ 09:48 pm
I am sad to say this... But I think I am on my way out of the Supernatural fandom. I'm pretty much done with everything being dragged out. I don't feel connected to the characters anymore or the story line. I really wish they would have quit while they were ahead. I don't think I will be watching season 10.
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27 February 2014 @ 08:04 am
I am so appalled at the number of people who think this is funny. For those of you who find it funny, think about the people who have been raped. Think about how that kind of material might make them feel. If you were raped -- which is an embarassing, self-depreciating, hurtful act that makes a person feel like he/she is not a person at all who couldn't save his/her body from personal invasion -- would you like seeing jokes like that all over the internet? I'm not hating on anyone that thinks it's funny; I'm just asking you to use some caution in regards to where you share this "joke", because you may not know it, but you probably have someone on at least one of your friends lists that has been raped.

As a rape victim, though it was well over 9 years ago, this makes me feel small. This makes me feel like I should be ashamed. It took years for me to come to terms that I have nothing to be shameful about, nothing to blame myself for. This kind of material is not funny. I wish people would think before they post hurtful things like this. I can only imagine how other victims feel -- especially those who have had this happen recently.
Current Mood: disgusted
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26 February 2014 @ 01:15 am
I've gained 5 pounds. FIVE FUCKING POUNDS. I am so disgusted with how my body looks I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning.
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18 February 2014 @ 03:56 pm
109 pounds with my sweatshirt and sweatpants on.  So I'm guessing that puts me right around 107.  I'm actually pretty grossed out.  I'd been at 104.3 -- which was a good place for me, and now I've gained FOUR POUNDS?  I'm making a schedule for myself (around work) so I can go to the gym at least 5 days a week.  I'm also limiting what I can eat -- and when I can eat it.  No more eating after 7pm; very lean meats, fresh vegetables, certain fruits... no white starch, no refined sugar.  I've felt this way before and I'm just not doing it this time -- I'm not going to feel disgusting like this.  I WON'T.
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30 October 2013 @ 04:58 pm
I'm not happy with the recent events of SUPERNATURAL.  I won't put spoilers in this, but they are allowed in the comments so proceed with caution...

Dean?  Not okay with what he is doing with either people that should be his first priority.  I am not okay with how the episode before last went.  Then, this last episode really just kind of sucked.
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12 June 2013 @ 07:24 pm
I finally figured out what it is I want to write.  I want an AU, where Ruby lived, and then play in the Demon Cure.  Of course, there would be lots of angry angsty sex between Sam and Ruby, Sam and Dean, and Dean/Sam/Ruby.  So now, to help me on my way -- Rec me some songs I could use to create a soundtrack.  So far, I have "Sanctified" by Nine Inch Nails, "Finding Me" Vertical Horizon, "You're a God" Vertical Horizon...  What do you guys have for suggestions?
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05 June 2013 @ 10:47 am
So, wanna rec me some hurt!Sam and/or hurt!Jared fics?  The hurtier the better.

Also, any fic prompts for hurt!Sam?  I'm feeling the urge to write something gut wrenching.
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23 May 2013 @ 03:01 pm
I just really need to write... And I can't....

So I'm asking for prompts -- Pre-series or AU for Supernatural.
Harry Potter -- Harry/Hermione, but others welcome
The Hunger Games -- Peeta/Katniss

Please -- I'm begging for help here.
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19 May 2013 @ 10:32 pm

I finally graduated from college!!